I have been in DA for one week already~ Sounds not too long time ha~but for me~I have gained lots of brand-new and freshing experiences here which I have never encountered in my previous 24 years' life~

All-importantly~I met so many new friends who created various kinds of extremely extremely excellent photographies and artworks~OMG~You are terribly terribly talented buddies!~Moreover~you are so kindhearted and all gave me generous praises and encouragements that I could motivate myself creating more works in future~I have not got such stimulating feelings for years~since I dropped my painting habbit as a teenager and started fighting for my biological sciences~


Now I see the six-year-old I standing in front of me who held a bunch of colour pencils and continued learning sketch, watercolour and oil painting for years~Yeah~she is coming back~with that familiar and comfortable smile~a cute, sweet, and lovely heart injects to my sensitively mature heart~Finally~I found out the lost part of me~from the deepest corner of my mind~and my heart~I feel complete~

'Do you want to paint with me?~'~She asked delightfully~in such a relaxing autumn afternoon while the golden sunshine splashing into the floor window~across the white chiffon window curtain~and finally~shining on her little tender and pink cheeks~'Of course~Let's paint~' I smiled~never want to see that she would be hurt anymore~'I want a rabbit~a jumping rabbit~Could you help me?'~clear and waterful brown eyes expecting me~'No problem~'How keen I wished she could be happy since now~and~forever~no matter what I had to sacrifice~but~I could not do it~because~I was her~at that time~alone~

Everything went so smoothly and naturally~Colorful fallen leaves~from the tree~knocked on the window lightly~greeting us naughtily~and quickly flying away~with their siblings~They are not alone~She felt safe~I could feel~because she was neither nervous nor sorrowful as what she usually was~because she was happy~indeed~and~because~I was her~'I am sorry~I cannot protect you when you are so young~I am so sorry~forgive me~please~'~'Do not worry~It does not matter at all~As you know~I can go through all of the obstacles~by myself~I can~and~I have to~And actually~I am always feeling pleasant inside my heart~'~She smiled and consoled me~as she always did for others~So kindhearted~

That was true~without love from mommy and daddy after six-year-old~she was so brave to face directly everything~everthing~alone~optimistically~by painting~day by day~year by year~in her own small~but colourful world~escaping from worrying about anything~escaping from the real sorrowful life~too heavy for a little girl~until~until her heart became grey~little by little~without her consciousness~

My tears fell down~'Look~it starts to rain~Hope little animals can go back home quickly~Mommy and daddy can warm their babies in their homes~'~As usual~she was worrying about~her little friends who lived in the yard~the only creatures she could talk with without stress~yes~beautiful heart was still alive inside staunchly~Rain~from the heaven~dropped onto the window~then slipped down~like my tears~like crystals~like purest water~and finally~got together~on the ground~They are not alone~

'Remember~little miss~after the rain~there will alway be a rainbow~in the huge huge blue sky~in the clean and fresh air~Even you cannot chase or touch it~it is still there~revealing its beauty~to me~to you~to us~together'~'I know~it is beautiful~really beautiful~I have seen it before~after a storm~I tried to paint it~but I could not yet~'~'I can help you~by combining water and some nice colours~It is like magic~'~~~

She will~paint~better and better~~~

I smiled~~~

FoxyKettu
31.Oct.2006